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Note: Following is a collection of well lets say of half hour in my brain, thats how the silly thing works. Good or bad I don’t know but thats the way it is.

When your 18 you want to do so much with your life, some want to be the next billionaire other want to change the world, I even had a cousin who had a complete plan with blue prints to take over the world. At that time we really believe in it and it’s those exact passions which at times results in truly brilliant ideas or well then there always are suicides. Or then there always is a possibility of your being 23 doing absolutely nothing with your life and writing about when you had that passion.

It’s really fun to see kids with that energy and seeing them actually believing in something can happen for them or the world, the desire to be something big meaningful or rich for that matter. There is so much you want to do in so little time. You want to get yourself enrolled in a good college learn something meet new people, make friends or who knows wanting to find your lover.

Your involved in art, theatre, plays, gaming groups, hell you make your own band then slowly it fades away and it hits you. You’re going to live the same life that your parents did, you’re going to be doing the same old shitty jobs all your life and you’re going to be happy about it. You’ll marry someone who is good for you, have a decent job a car two kids and work your ass off to keep them happy. And your kids are going to be 18 and hope to be somebody one day. It sucks but that’s life and it’s going to be that way and well you really can’t change it.

There are different people that you meet in the different phases of your life often people who think that will stay there forever. You instantly feel a connection and it all seems to be going well then things start to fade away, its natural somehow.

Let’s talk about creativity and last teen years, I think everyone wrote poetry when they were 16. Its natural things come into mind and that is one of the best stuff that comes from you, some keep following it and keep writing it down other well they get lost in the usual activities of life and lose it. For me fortunately/unfortunately creativity hits me hard when something’s not right. I think that happens to a lot of people that if things are looking up creativity doesn’t really hit you.

I think the worst thing someone can do to human beings is give them what they desire I mean all that they desire. Because it’s never about the end result well it is if it’s a shiny red Ferrari but usually it isn’t. The whole fun and the whole thing is the process the struggle that you do to get to a certain place. If you’re given everything that you want you just lost there is no more hope nothing to look forward to nothing you want. Your life’s a complete halt, that’s the worst thing you could do to a man.

Hope is an amazing thing; it just takes you to places you never imagine. It’s something that just keeps you going keeps you happy. Not knowing is the best thing that could happen to humans, if you knew everything about everything there would not be a sense of purpose something or wanting to achieve something. We would just on our dumb asses thinking WTF now?