“Do you have any plans for tonight? No? Oh good! why don’t we meet up and discuss some things then?”, he said. We had a good meeting.We talked about about the old times,the fun we had,the pranks we pulled and how we wish that they would never end. We also talked about the future and how we are not doing the things that we planned to do. We discussed how we should quit what we are doing and for once do the right thing! Invent something,be a filthy rich Rock Star or be the amazing entrepreneur we always aimed to be.
We discussed the latest models of Ferrari and how it isn’t such a good car to drive in the city.We tried to satisfy our egos by thinking, “Well even if we had one we couldn’t just drive it on the Islamabad Highway and even if we did it wouldn’t really be any use considering all the traffic! Besides if your sitting in it you can’t really see the car now can you?!”
But this time we had the perfect business plan! Why not work on weekends and grow from there.Once we succeed we’ll have blah blah number of users and that much money with each hit, we’ll be rich in no time! But even though we discussed the plan thoroughly again and again something just felt wrong. I just couldn’t figure out what it was.Then I saw the new S class pass me and I murmured ‘bastard’ under my tongue. I just wished I had a GMC truck and I could just smash his car up! though deep down inside I knew that I wanted to be the one behind the wheel of that car. ‘This plan will work out’, I thought and I would also be there in no time. I woke up the next morning half sleep half awake and I went back to my Desk job blaming everything all over again. Talking about my future plans with my colleges didn’t help either. I had another detailed discussion on how if we could include another thing in the plan it would be perfect and ready to launch, but I still just wasn’t satisfied.
“Lets meet up tonight, its been a while”, he said. I agreed and we met and talked about our school days and how things were then, what we wanted to be and how we did silly things. We remembered how we used to bunk classes and had a different crush everyday! We decided to take a little walk on the hills, we sat there watching the city thinking how good it looked and how big it was becoming every day. We thought how the sky was still so much bigger than the city beneath it.One thing led to another and we started discussing human relations and spirituality. We discussed how our society is behaving as opposed to how it’s meant to be. If we draw a basic line between right and wrong we should change ourselves and get rid of the ‘HAWIS’ in us and thus try to become better humans. We left on a positive note. Ten minutes after the discussion I felt really positive and passionate about the more important things in life.I could see the wrong not in others but in myself and I wanted to change it. Something felt good inside me. I stopped at a traffic signal and an amazing S class parks right next to me. I looked at it and for the first time I really appreciated how good a car it was and said “Mashallah”. Then I drove home and slept with the hope of implementing everything discussed.I slept peacefully that night.
I woke up the next morning, didn’t implement anything I discussed last night and went back to doing my day job,but this time I didn’t have that feeling of hate inside me,instead i felt a gratitude for what we have achieved in life and a strong sense of what not to do in the future.
Darn that was a long and boring story! but anyways, coming to the point. The thing is whenever we make materialistic plans we keep on building them and never actually get to the implementing part.Even if we do implement them we still find something else to run after. Its a long vicious cycle that will never end! Discussing matter and running after it only makes you think about it more and gives you a need to acquire more.No matter how much you achieve it’s never enough and somehow all of it doesn’t seem to really matter in the end. Dreaming and running after materialistic stuff is never a guarantee that it will give you happiness. You might just end up sad and lost in the end,not knowing what to do next. But if you invest the same amount of time and energy in a totally different direction it doesn’t really matter what you acquire or what you lose. There is an internal satisfaction that will always be there,no matter how trivial it is.
Talking about nature,spirituality, humans and their interactions only takes you one step closer to humanity.You start loving life and people in a different way and you have the desire to change them and yourself. At the end of the day it doesn’t matter what you achieved or how many dreams you fulfilled, because you are just satisfied at some level and it all feels ok at the end.
So just try it for once, take out time to talk about something totally un-materialistic.Deny the things you do all day, take some time out for human beings, be around them, have a chat and share the humanity.It will feel good and will also last longer than our average materialistic dreams.